Thanking God for a Rainbow Baby

A little over a year ago I saw the term rainbow baby for the first time.  I read about how a child that is born after miscarriages is called a rainbow baby.  The story touched me deeply because of my friend that I have mentioned to you all in a previous blog.  I began to pray without her knowing to have a rainbow baby of her own.

Last Fall she told me she was pregnant again and I was so happy for her.  I told my then 7-year-old daughter and she began to pray for the baby.  My little girl said,  “She had one baby.  She is my best friend but the other babies went to heaven to be with Jesus.  Please God let her keep this baby in her belly until it is time for her to be born so we can hold it and play with it when it is bigger.

A little while later doctors told her she was miscarrying again.  She resigned herself to the fact that her little girl would be an only child.   However, weeks later she discovered that the doctors were wrong.  The baby was very much alive

For the rest of her pregnancy she was told a variety of health issues the child had.  I told her to stand strong and on faith.  She said she did not care what was wrong with the baby she would love it anyways.  After months of that doom and gloom, she went to an appointment where the doctor told her he believed the baby girl was fine.

A little over a month ago I told her I don’t know why God allows the things to happen he does.  I will never know the reason He chose to take the other babies home to be with him.  I do know that the Lord has big plans for this little girl though.

This week I held that little rainbow baby for the first time.  She is a wee one but she is here.  Little baby noises never sounded as beautiful and baby smells were never as sweet as when you hold a child you were told might never be.

If you are reading this and longing for a rainbow baby of your own, my prayers are with you.  While we don’t know why God allows what he does I am so glad that he holds ever tear we have ever cried in His nail pierced hands.  His heart breaks when ours do.  We are never alone.


Overcoming depression

I have not written a blog in a while.  I have been busy being a mom, a friend and doing stuff for church.  Something happened last week that I just have to talk about with you my readers.

Years ago when my daughter was small, we were part of a preschool group.  It was an awesome time for her to play and me to fellowship with Christian women, who were walking the journey of mother hood with me.

One night I fought with Facebook to post a note of encouragement on one of the other mother’s wall.  I was about to give up when I felt the Holy Spirit saying no.  I don’t remember what I posted.  However, I will never forget her words to me the next time I saw her in person.  “You don’t know it but you saved my life that night.  I had a bottle of pills opened and in my hands.  I heard the click of a message and when I read it I put them back in the bottle.”

I am telling you this story so you know if you feel the Lord leading you to do something do it.  No matter how small.  You never know the impact your actions will have on others.  Also you do not know what trials and tribulations others are dealing with.  Please be the light in this dark world we are living in.  Shine brightly and show His love.

Depression is a demon that targets people of every race, age and sex.  This woman fought it bravely.  She knew how to fight because she was a Marine Veteran.  However, last week I was told that she was hit by a train on a railroad track.  No one knows if it was an accident or her desire to end the pain.  What we do know is there is a mother less child that will be crying herself to sleep for a long time to come.

Please if you are battling this war yourself remember we serve a God, who has promised to never leave us or forsake us.  He sticks closer than a brother.  When He went up in the sky, Jesus told us He was leaving behind the Comforter.  He created you with a purpose.  He gave you talents and gifts to use for His glory.  God has work for you to do.

Satan is the father of lies.  He tells us that if God loved us he would not have allowed things to happen.  He puts drugs in the path of folks to self medicate pain and in turn they become addicted to a high that the poison is giving them.  I beg you not to fall for his schemes.

Instead listen to the voice of God as He whispers, “I love you.”  Get in His word and find His words of encouragement.  Psalm 23: 4 says, “ Even though I walk  through the darkest valley, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.”  If you need help seek it.  Call your pastor or a friend to pray with you.  My hope today is that those reading this remember Who they belong to.  You are a child of His.  If He is for us, who can be against us?  Resist the Devil and He will flee.  

Who, What, When, Where and How

Way back in school they taught when writing there are five important questions to answer.  You all know the ones I am talking about: who, what, when, where and how.  I have been thinking lately about those questions regarding our relationship to God.  Before I start listing them I want to let you know all quotes are from the King James Bible.  It is what I was raised on.

Who are we?  We are His creation.  We are people who He loved so much He sent His Son to die for us “while we were yet sinners.”  John 3:16 and Romans 5:8 tell us that.  Second Peter 3:9 tells us that it is not His will that “any should perish.”  Instead it is His desire for us to “come to repentance.”

That leads us to the what questions.  What is repentance and what are we repenting of?  Repentance is asking God to forgive us of our sins and going on to being new creatures in Christ.  2 Corinthians 5:17 says “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”  It is not easy and it is something one must do daily.

In answer to the second part of our what questions, we are repenting of sin.  Which of course gives us another what.  Sin is anything that displeases God.  It is the things we do that He tells us not to do.  It is also the things we don’t do that He tells us to.  God gives us unique talents and abilities that He wants us to use for His glory.  When we choose to ignore that calling,  that is sin.  It is also a  sin when we believe the lies of this world over the truth in His holy word.

That leads us to the when question.  There are a lot of folks that say the Old Testament does not apply today.  They try to make us believe that Jesus did not talk about certain issues we are facing today.  So folks wonder when God changes rules to fit in with the culture of the day.  The answer to that question is never.  Society changes but God’s standards never do.  Hebrews 13:8 tells us that He is the same yesterday, today and forever.  Revelations tells us that in the end times man will call what God calls bad good and vice versa.  Friends I believe those times are here.

Folks we have arrived at the where question.  Where are we to worship?  The answer is everywhere.  I saw a sign the other day that said  something like, If you are riding a fence.  It belongs to Satan.”  It is so true.  Remember God spits out the lukewarm(Rev 3:16).  You are either for Him or against Him.  The road to heaven is narrow according to Matt 7:13-14.  You can not be His on Sunday and the worlds on Monday through Saturday.

That brings us to how you show who’s we are.  Our tune can not change depending on our surroundings.  Our song should always be one of gratitude for a loving God, who gives His salvation to an undeserving people.  It does not mean we won’t have bad moments but in those times we will know who carries you.  We will show fruits of the spirit listed in Galatians 5:22-23.  They are “love, joy, peace, long-suffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, (and) temperance”  Yes we will all make mistakes but if we promptly bring those sins before God He will forgive us.  We must give ourselves to Him daily.  We need to be praying without ceasing and getting so much of His word in our hearts and heads that we can see the lies that are being thrown at us we will not fall.  We must remember at all times to love the sinner and hate the sin.  That is how we show who we belong to.  Here is a link of a good Bible tool.   Blessings to all reading this.  As my pastor always says,  “These words were as much for me as you.”

Parent’s Sorrow

Years ago when I wrote Promised Land on the anniversary of my mother’s death, the Lord directed me to redo the middle section on the loss of a child.  He told me that I needed to make it fit more people.  I had a conversation with Him.  I told Him that He knows I don’t like to share my work.  I worry too much about what others might think or say.  He reminded me that our talents are a gift from Him that He has the right and power to take away.  So I did what He said and shared those words.  I was amazed that so many were touched so deeply.

That was 16 years ago.  That poem has been altered to suit so many friends situations.  I have written others on the loss of a loved one but not until now has God laid it on my heart to write one especially on the topic of losing a child. I have to tell you this was the hardest one I have ever written.  I don’t mean that I had problems finding words to rhyme or line up.  This was emotionally draining.  I have had it in my head for months but feel the need to share it for Mothers’ Day.  I know tomorrow will be hard for some of you.  It is my prayer that the temporary discomfort I felt will bring peace to some of you with the words He has given me.  I no longer care of folks like my work but that they are touched by God through me.  I think my mom would be proud.

  • I was there for your first heartbeat
  • could not wait for the day we’d meet
  • I never expected to be here for your last
  • Time just seemed to go to fast
  • It was not part of my plans
  • when I counted the fingers on your tiny hands
  • There is joy mixed with my sorrow
  • of knowing for you there is no tomorrow
  • For to be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord
  • the one, Who paid the price we could never afford
  • Yes His word gives the blessed assurance that you are
  • standing beside the maker of the sun, moon and stars
  • Today your with the author of our salvation, the giver of amazing grace
  • You have sung “Jesus Loves Me” right to His face
  • You’ve been reunited with every loved one
  • whose earthly race is done
  • I wonder as you’re walking on those streets of gold
  • Have you run into any of the saints of old
  • Did you have a chance to chat with the one you are named for?
  • or any of the other folks whose accounts you so adore
  • I know that I have to let you go
  • but some days the tears will just flow
  • However, there is such peace in knowing that I will see you again
  • Yes you and I will be back together after I have knelt before our God in heaven

The Keys to Forgiveness

It has been a while since I have written a blog.  I took time off for family and then it seemed as if we all took turns fighting something.  A family in our church had a sudden loss.  I thought my next blog would be the poem that has been floating in my head since then.  However, last week I was asked by a family member how I had managed to forgive my abuser.  That thought and the answer to it has been rolling around in my brain since.

I have always told people if you want to forgive someone you have to begin praying for him/her.  I know it is not easy but hey what Jesus did for us was not easy and His word tells us we must forgive to be forgiven.

This last week I realized there was another component that I had forgotten about.  You see in my memory I had completely forgotten the first step I had to take.  I had to realize first that God loves me and is in control of my life.  However, we live in a fallen world and people make bad choices daily.  Before I got to the point I could pray for someone else I had to pray for forgiveness of my sins and healing for myself.

I then had to cling to the verse you see posted on this blog and my social media accounts.  I firmly believe that what Satan intended for evil God can and does use for good.  It amazes me the times I have been told that words I have spoken or written have touched others lives.  It is all God.  He knows our pasts and our future.  He directs our presents when we allow him to.

So today my readers if you are still struggling to forgive I ask you have you taken the steps necessary.  The keys are in your hands but you must use them.  Remember all have sinned and that includes you.  The power you receive when you take the step of repentance is wonderful.  Next concentrate on His word and his promises.  Find the verse that speaks to your heart.  Meditate on it and believe in it.  Then pray for the salvation of your abuser and you will feel a weight lifted off of your shoulders.  With these keys you can unlock a door that leads to peace and comfort.  You may still have bad moments, days or even weeks but cling to his promises and that will get you through them.


Forgiving Yourself

Over the last few weeks I have felt led to do a series on forgiveness.  So I started the series the other day.  I was talking to someone, who I wanted to share the series with someone she had mentioned.  It was then I found out that the friend I was talking to was a victim of rape herself.  She said, “Maybe this is for me.”  I told her I don’t know but remember God loves you.  He can use this for His glory.

With that being said, today I am going to talk about false guilt and false shame.   Those are some psychological terms that basically mean it was not your fault and you have no reason to be ashamed.  If you have heard these terms before I pray today you let your head tell your heart that you were innocent.  If you have never seen them before please heed them now.  It does not matter how you dressed or if you went to his home.  It further does not matter if it was someone you knew or a stranger.  Nor does it matter if you were a child or an adult.  IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT.

People often call a lie a falsehood.  We know who the father of lies is.  So today I want you to know these false emotions you are feeling are lies straight from the devil himself to keep you from moving on and living the life God has in store for you.

For years I blamed myself for the molestation of the person, who was later abused by my abuser.  I tormented myself with the thought that the person in my nightmare might have done something to other children.  It was after the prayer I talked about the other day I truly started to heal.

Then I had to learn to forgive myself for something that was not my fault.  Today my readers I want you to understand that forgiveness of others and especially yourself is the best gift you could ever receive.

I will not tell you it is easy.  However, we serve a God, who covers us in His grace and through Him we can do what the world thinks is impossible.  Today I want you to concentrate on these words.  You are a child of God created with a purpose formed in your mother’s wombs to worship and serve the only living God.  The fact that He allowed you to be abused does not mean you are not loved.  It means instead that He loves you so much your pain is breaking His heart and He wants to heal it.  By His stripes we are all healed.  He was broken for the wounded and wounded for the broken.  You can do all things through Christ and that includes getting over this trauma.  Get his word and get on your knees.  Fill yourself so full of him that the enemy can not whisper one lie in your ear.  If you have not found a church yet I urge you find one.  K LOVE radio station has a number you can call for prayer.  Prayer Requests: (800) 525-LOVE (5683)  Most important remember that God can use evil for good.  Today’s test will be tomorrow’s testimony.


God is in Control

My mind is racing with blogs I want to write.  While researching material for some future blogs, I have stumbled on some positive things I want to share with you all.  There is a family in South Carolina that lost almost everything in a flood.  They had to evacuate quickly.  Upon their return  two pieces of furniture were upright and not soaked.

One was the chair holding the husband’s Bible.  Folks is that not a message from God on the importance He places on our time in His word?  It is called our daily bread.  Yet we, who are living here in a country where we are free to own many copies, neglect to read, study and meditate on it.  We are told to hide “His word in (our) hearts that (we) might not sin.”  We are further told to “study (it) to find (ourselves) approved.”  However, we make time in our busy lives for everything but Bread of Life.  Shame on us.

We have brothers and sisters in foreign lands being beheaded for owing Bibles and praying to the only living God.  Parents are being forced to watch their babies being tortured to bring them to belief in Allah.  Ya I know Islam is a peaceful religion.  That is the lie they are trying to feed us any way.  However, the news tells me differently.  It further tells me that this country is turning from God and towards that false one.  Folks while we have the freedom to read His word we need to get busy.

Search it so when the lies come at you will see them for what they are.  Do not be fooled by some nice person tricking you into reading the Quran.  Do not be deceived into thinking He is a good God and He will not send people to hell.  He does not send us there.  Our actions do.  However, He provided a way.  There is a heaven to be gained and a Hell to shun.  Being good is not good enough.  “All have sinned.”  We all need a savior.  He is knocking.  Won’t you please let Him in?

The other piece of furniture that was not turned over was a table that had risen with the flood waters and neatly gone right back down in its spot.  Yes God, Who told the tides where to stop allowed two items to rise and protected their contents.  He showed a family and us that He is in control.  Even in the midst of life’s trials and tribulations He is aware of each and  every one of our situations.  He cares and He is there.

What was so important about the table you ask?  It contained the offering check for the family’s church.  It was totally dry.  Yes the family lost everything but they were thankful that item was still ready to take to church.  Folks that think church is not important take note of this.  His word says to “not forsake the assembling of the brethren.”  He protected the family’s offering for a reason.  I am not saying you have to go to church to be saved but I know how much easier it is to walk with Him when you have brothers and sisters in Christ beside you.  This world is full of people and things wanting to pull you away.  Church is a place to gather strength.  We need to fellowship with other believers and hold each other up in prayer and also hold each other accountable for life’s actions.  As always I hope you all have blessed days.  Never forget He is with you always,                   .